"Last Christmas"

Didn't want to write an unhappy entry but the feelings continue. Whereby previously I had stylistics "I can't give you anything" stuck in my head, now its Wham's "Last Christmas". I hear it playing everywhere. The words that really jump out are "now I know what a fool I've been but if you kiss me now I know you'll fool me again". Then I'll starting missing her again. Damn, why do I let it affect me this way. It's just so damn hard to walk away from it all. Didn't go out last night. Just spent the time modeling my swordsman character. Feel like Rocky Balboa right after he's been floored by Clubber Lang. Like I'm all pissed inside me. Will be off to Church soon. Hopefully I can some comfort out of it. So very dry and tired now.