To do list
Okay, this is what has been cleared from the list so far. Seems to be a bit better with a bit of a plan. I am still similarly frustrated and emotionally bothered and my energy levels are really low but I think this is not too bad a start.
- Clear main table (Done)
- Fix luggage wheels
- Buy black tee/socks/undies (Black tee purchased)
- Test premiere pro
- Finish up library book
- Dress up cover letter and resume
- Call Alex about black jacket (Done)
- Finish model body
- Wash bed sheets (Done)
- Buy razor refills/shaving cream (Done)
- Go gym (Done)
- Contact Norman tech support (Done)
So of my list of 12, I have half of it done. Not too bad. Got to resist the urge to put more down before Thursday so that I do not end up in a mess. Alrighty, that was the boring structural part. Not that I did anything terribly exciting yesterday. Went gym and then to Bugis and got my "brother" black shirt. Thought I could drown a bit of my sorrows but ended up with Chua, Chun Hsian, Kuodo and XX at Breko of all places! I hate it. It is loud, noisy, hot and man, I'm better off drinking at home. Mental note to self: Boycott Breko. On the emotional side, I find myself thrashing with rage. I just want to destroy something. Some of the residual emotion from that destructive relationship has turned into a bitter seething rage. I'm starting to see how human I really am. Not noble, not gracious nor gallant. Just flawed. I do not really hate anyone. I just hate the unfairness of it all. And unfairness isn't something that I can tangibly destroy.
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