Monday: A wave of mood hits me

Monday. A rainy one at that. And I have got a mood to match. It seemed like I suddenly absorbed a wave of sadness. It feels like a lot of time has passed and I'm stuck here doing nothing. I'm just so tired now but can't get to sleep. I tell myself I'm a fighter. That I don't give up easy. That I have borne the pain and won. Yet here I am in a flicker later, hating myself, doubting myself, wondering how far I had fallen...