Super frustrated

Feeling super frustrated this weekend. I pretend I am fine but on some days I just want to hit a wall. I haven't gotten used to feeling so inadequate for so long.

I did bring mum out shopping/makan and I think it was a good opportunity for us to bond. I would love for mum to be happy and I think she enjoyed her weekend. This, sadly, is a rarity these days.

I'm feeling a bit walled-up and needing help. I can't see it any more. Purpose, distinction, direction. I have none of that now. How do I get out of this hole? How do I climb out?