When you are almost empty...

Admittedly, this year has been really tough. I left my job in August and right now, I'm still looking for work. While other people are already cruising life's highway, I'm still pushing the car to try to get it going. I feel really tired now. It is a chasm between what I know I can be and what I am now. I'm struggling. I'm fighting. Each time I go down, it seems more easy to keep lying on the canvas and count myself out. But I also tell myself that as long as I get up again when it is painful, someone else next to me didn't. Eventually, I will be good enough - I would know how to take a beating, endure it and perhaps even learn a few tricks to avoid the blows. As part of my application, I had to submit the above image composition to the company. While I am not a specialist photoshop artist, I managed to complete this task and I think it did not turn out too badly. So I am behind in terms of fundamental skill and practice but I have also proven that I have the ability to pick up things quickly and execute. As long as I keep working and improving that base, I would one day be able to make a great living expressing ideas visually. I would likely have to work with other people's visions first, and then earn enough rep to do my own concepts. Now I just need to grasp onto time, and use it effectively.