The feeling of giving up

Today is Chinese New Year.Yet there is the general feeling of dejection mired in my veins. The quest for my dream is impeded by tons of obstacles. Hell, I don't even know if this is worth it any more. I wonder if I'm even worth it any more. I always believed that I was "one step away" from something good. But it is always not enough. And now it feels like the one step might just be a step too far and high. If I was not good enough, I would have accepted it and did something else. But then I know I am good enough to win - otherwise I wouldn't be so disappointed by losing.