Feeling rushed and flustered

It has been many days since I returned to my blog again. I am feeling flustered at the moment. I am bombarded with fears and clinging onto whatever faint hope life can throw at me. I am training to become a better 3D designer. To raise my game, I need to learn a few more things. It is like the Avatar. You must master the four elements of modeling/texturing (done), animation (done), rigging (in progress) and rendering (in progress). I know I haven't been really effective these few days but I just need to be calm and patient, and continuing my development along the way.