V Day blues

It is Wednesday and I am just about to clear the mid-week hump. I have been very busy with Fab Academy assignments and just managed to catch a little Lego break yesterday.

I have been feeling quite lousy about myself these past few days and being here is my way of confronting it. It is nearing Valentine's Day and suddenly, all these negative thoughts start to intrude upon me. Thoughts of not being enough. Thoughts of being unwanted. Thoughts of being insignificant. Thoughts that I will never feel at home, drifting like a lonely, insignificant speck of dust my entire life towards the time when I finally check out of this world.

Over the years I have been through many of these uncomfortable Valentine's Days. The chilling loneliness gnaws at me while I watch other people walk by with hope and warmth in each other's love. As with every other year, I will have no warmth this year. I just steel myself and ponder at the irony of being physically warm in Singapore's hot weather, and yet being in emotional hypothermia.